╰დ╮Somebody, somebody╭დ╯
╰დ╮Can anybody find me somebody to love?╭დ╯
Let's start things off with Josie kissed me, on the cheek but that counts. hehe.
Shut up
You're right, there is a wall that I have up because I don't want anyone back here with me anymore. That's what you are there for, you can deal with them. I am a danger not just to myself anymore but to everyone. The time I spent it was all I could think about how do I please her? What if she doesn't want me to please her? Yet I feel like her permission is no longer required my desire outweighs it. It seems all I care about here lately has been number one... I am no better then him, what is happening to me?----------------------
The scene opens up with Josie storming off down the road after running out of gas and the battery dying leaving them stranded at the gas station and on top of it she had left the keys in the car to go find a phone to use and AJ had abandoned the car locking them in accidentally. She was too furious at him to even acknowledge him, AJ was a good block behind her and soaking in self pitty and hate.
"I was ding so good, maybe she was even thinking of me as equal and now I pissed her off, awesome! Stupid bitch didn't tell me she left the fucking keys in the car and she knew I was getting out because it was freezing piss sitting there. So what I walked over to the adultmart... hehe not like I went in I just wanted to see her. She looks so much like Alica, it sometimes makes me wonder if we are twins through the soul... the girl who works there ya know. Whatever it was stupid pissed off Josie, seems like the only person to really understand me sometimes is her why would I piss her off?""TAKE A BATH!" Some teenager screamed out a car window as AJ was bending down to pick up a beer can to put in his bag thinking he might as well try and get some money somehow. He picked up a rock as they passed and stood up fast tossing it hard at the vehicle and cracking the window.
"Fuck you!" AJ shouted.
The car stopped and one guy got out of the passenger side.
"Hey fucktard, what the fuck?"He advanced closer and AJ held onto the pen inside his pocket quickly as the guy approached him he jammed the pen into the guy's gut and then again an again before throwing a hard left hook that knocked him down. The second guy backed up and ran back to his car while AJ continued to beat the other one.
"Learn some fucking manners you fucking shit! It's fucking Christmas... MERRY CHRISTMAS!" He kicks the guy hard and then stomps on his chest by now the car is backing up.
Josie from seemingly nowhere yanked AJ off the guy and pushed him in the opposite direction.
"GO!"AJ stood there and then turned and rushed off with Josie right behind him.
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I have blood on my hands and stare into the mirror with a twisted smile across my face. I bet that fucker is thinking twice about being a prick...
No he isn't he is thinking that you are a psycho. haha!
Well he deserved it, I get what I want that's just the bottom line. Even now looking in the mirror I feel like Max is smiling back at me, like Blake is laughing at me. There is a large difference between them and me though, they are dead and I am alive. Suck to be you guys.Riot exits the bathroom and sees Josie sitting in a chair inside the motel room. Her gaze indicates she is about to give him some lecture, but he pretends not to care walking over to the bed that is next to the chair and sitting on the edge of it.
"I know you don't want to hear this, but it needs to be said, you're a damn fool! How did you know that they didn't have some kind of weapon or that someone could have called the cops on you or worse, I know that I'm the last person that should condemn you, but what if I hadn't pulled you off him? You could have killed him, AJ!"He chuckles and shrugs.
"Then he would have died... If they had a weapon then I wouldn't care... I don't really care about a lot of anything lately. Haven't you ever felt this way before?"He stood up and paced around motel rooms held too many memories for him. Too many people spent the night with him and then disappeared from his life, he found little stability from anything anymore.
"Tell me Josie you wanting me to take it easy on Trueblood too? People who are rude deserve what they get, Raven understands that. This match is not going to be easy at all I have to let go of that little voice that tells me to hold back, honestly I think it's what she was trying to teach me... is that why you hate it so much?"Josie seems annoyed by his disregard.
"Yes, I have and that's what ruined my life some would say. I just want to remind you, while you're feeling so smug and righteous, that I am not the enemy here. I'm just reminding you of the consequences you could have faced. Some friendly advice from someone who has been there." Josie crosses her arms apparently angry.
"I am not being righteous, I am just being me. I knew fully well what could happen I just didn't care." he sighs feeling the guilt heavy on his chest.
"What you want me to do?" He asked feeling defeated for the moment.
Josie was biting her bottom lip out of habit and at his question, she ceased the activity and unfolded her arms and leaped up from the chair all in one motion.
"Really, being you? AJ, I don't know what's gotten into you cuz you sound like Max and Blake now, more than the man I know.""Really? Tell me then how I am suppose to act to be the man you know? I get these feelings and I act on them. This is the first time in my life I don't hold back from doing stuff because of what others will think or say. Maybe its because I am SICK and TIRED of waiting for shit to happen for me. Look I am not willing to wait around for shit that's never gonna happen Josie..." He turned around clinching his fist holing back from saying what he felt. She might be willing to wait around on Shane to magically come back into town or contact her, but he is not. He gave everyone the benefit of the doubt all the time, and Revelation had thrown that in his face while locked up.
"I'm a monster, I am sick... I deserve everything that happens to me. I don't expect you to stick around, nobody does." He released his hands to a relaxed pose and took a few more steps away from her.
She ran and jumped in his way putting her hand up in a stopping signal which rested on his chest.
"And they call me stubborn, chill out. Would your life be less complicated if I walked out of that door? Just say the word, if it will make you happy. For your info I don't consider you a monster no more than you think that of me."He looked down at her hand on his chest. He did not feel like lying to her and looking her dead on in the face always seems to be like taking a punch to the stomach.
"Even if it would make my life easier... it would not be worth it." He rubbed his hand over his mouth in a poor attempt to hide a small smile. He knew he is a horrible person here lately but as long as Josie doesn't see it then it really doesn't matter, Alison didn't see him as anything but Daddy and he doesn't want either of them to ever see him as weak.
He removed his hand and resumed his semi serious face.
"I have to live off the emotions I feel to live by, I'm sorry Josie. I will never require you to go down in flames with me, I feel you have another purpose. I will however not stop myself from heading towards my final judgement. I have to do what I have to do. The only thing I can promise is never to abandon you when you need me." He put his hand on her shoulder and hoped she would understand where he is coming from. He cares about her and her opinion, but just because she lived through something and learned a lesson does not mean he will take the same lesson away from a similar situation.
Josie took her free hand and placed it over his on her shoulder, showing him without a word that she understood him. She gave him a smile and pulled him into a hug.
"I always have your back to, no matter how stupid I think your choice might be." AJ smiled and closed his eyes as he hugged her back, but it was short lived as she pulled away from him and punched him in the arm.
"HEY! What do you mean your life would be less complicated without me?"He rubbed his arm where she punched him and chuckled with an innocent shrug.
"It's complicated in general or I would explain it better girl. I got to focus on Raven Trueblood for the moment though."The scene fades from them as Riot has to fully focus on the match where he will face not just a dangerous man, but one that seems to think like him. Nothing matters and nothing seems to die only fade away, which one will Raven do? What about Revelation he has kept a low profile since releasing AJ is that some part of his game? All the answers will be found at Injection.
