Post by Adam McGavin on Apr 30, 2011 1:23:41 GMT -5
When we open ~ Do we open with love? ~ Forced open? ~ Left Open?
I love the sky, I love the earth, I love a lot of things even ones that hurt.
~Adam Highland; when asked about his feelings on love in his 5th year of primary school.
Yeah I got laughed at for saying that. I actually had a friend that was a few grades up from me, but he moved away. After that it was only me, myself, and I. All of us taking care of her.
Adam played with a shot glass flipping it in his hands as the car drove past scenery he stared at taking it all in. Felt like the Green Mile, was this it for him? All the triggers were loaded, this would be a hole she would not get out of this time. She will never be rid of him, and she will have no choice, but to laugh and laugh madly as she wonders forever where he is?
"I went through life completely dead. Food was nothing but a drug, air was a drug I did not need it. I needed to join the buried and rest beneath or in the earth. I lived as a kid, death tried to claim me, but I survived, then again, I recovered. After so many times of not dying wouldn't you want something else. I did not fear death anymore, no I feared something far - far worse. I feared The Unknown. I met a girl when I was young, and I loved her, the world would stop for me to watch her. The reason being my mind moved so fast that time stopped. I raced through things that are possible to happen, running up to her and just claiming her for mine, no she drew attention, so she would not be so easy. Perhaps I should play a tough ass? Her laid back demeanor told me that would throw her off, but keep and interest. I figured eh, I will just do it. So I walked up to her acting all cool and shit, she gave a 'ugh look at this freak type of look' it hurt. But I couldn't give up this woman haunted my dreams, I couldn't sleep, food was empty and did nothing, I would puke from working myself up so much. She held that spell over me for 3 years.
My heart bleed and bleed, I was being drains and no way to stop it. I had to impress this woman to remove her from my thoughts, I had to make my imagination stop tormenting me. Oh the sleepless nights of dreaming the ghost that laughed at me, silly little boy they said. Some of them like to play with me, they keep me awake to see me slip into madness. Then others wanted to use me to feed their lust, they suck off of me my life, my emotions, everything... then I was scared by it, or hurt. Now ... I thrive off it. Zelean you loved that feeling and I fed it to you.
Was it ever true that I was attracted to you? You have breast and holes so what a daft question to wonder. What you could never ever do, that Alayna was escape my mind."
He chuckled.
"I'll make a deal with you dear girl, I will throw the life line. See if you would have paid attention ... oh ... wait you don't like to hand that out do you? Then again, you would quick to open yourself up to JT. Wonder what that was about, you are using him. Well good thing I destroyed your toy my love. Forever you wished, you wished me erased. Make up your mind! What did he do to you? Poor bloke had no bleedy warning did he? Heh-heh, well love let me paint you a picture, there is a boy that is on an acid ride like you would not believe. All his mind can focus around is you, becoming one with you, and wearing your flesh, you feel your flesh, to devour your flesh. Just like the cow you are, virgins are served in hell medium well."
He stares off to the left slightly chuckling as he thinks of the pure at heart, how dripping with blood they were, the poor, the nieve, the lustful, the greedy, the hungry and starving, all of them believing to be virtuous and he can feel it. Zelean wanted that freedom, she had to be free and not be told what to do, but look at her helplessness. A coward.
Adam looked out the window of the car driving him to the warehouse to get locked in the Chamber for 48 hours. Having her contract, then he could hang her. Make her dance like a pretty puppet. This was his sacrifice that he was going through. So what going down with a bang is wrong? The rain and intense heats was bothering him as he felt on fire.
"My beauty, you really are lost. I must have ripped off your head. I am either cruel or merciful take your pick, I never let the beheaded lose their heads. No I make them wonder around half severed. After all somebody has to guide you idiots around."
The UK Title was on his knee, he imagined it as a child. Shane Trudex having his child. No see he was suppose to be the one with Alayna, why did he let Shane have her? Adam leaned over and hit his head off the UK Title. "Stupid!"
She was so below him on her knees that he laughed at it. Her eyes sparkling with the ghost of her past. "Ya know ... I can imagine now Zel why you felt you had to have me so bad. All those people that kept you down, that put a roof over your head, then paid attention to you, and they loved you. All they wanted was a better life for you, so you abandon them? Because they did what held power over you? Nobody ever has power you don't allow them to have. I still am there for my mother, right until she OD in fact. I stopped letting her boss me around at fifteen. The night ... *sighs* ... The night after you accused me of cheating on you, after that attack you thought was so damn funny. I talked to Alayna, said that you really got into her about trying to steal me. Heh... Banged the frick out of her."
Adam laughed about just saying it. He felt so much more liberated about getting it out there. "I never wanted to date you, but ya just kept pushing me sweetheart and I felt I owed it to you for sticking beside me so long. That is the stairway to stardom, and the last person that climbed up a ladder against me I face after 48 hours of isolation. It's almost not even worth it, but the more you quiet you are about it the more I have to talk so people can think somebody cares. I know you care Zel, you are just waiting for the right time. Go on, end my career, end my life, put me out of my misery! Nobody cares about Adam, and why should they? I am nobody, just another organism like the rest of you, but the difference is that I know how you act love. Your temper is too big, your envy is too rich, and your love is too shallow. What a miserably hollow life you lead my sweet. I have much much better things for my Love though. I bet it makes you bubble over."
He smirked at the cameras.
"How did it feel for me to wash away your sins? I anointed you in oils, I purified you. Blessing rain unto you Sarah White, praise your personal jesus for this. Praised he who made you pure and whole. What made me smirk about it all was how much you liked it. Date rape? What is date rape? Who said it isn't kind? I seen your eyes light up and I never even stuck anything into your panties. Haha, mmm this ... mmm ... mmm yeah those deep sighs and long moans could fuel a wanker for a good while I bet."
He smirked more even still as he sat there. He was getting ready to be locked in the chamber now, he was the second to do so. He'd held out to wait for Zelean, but she as probably running around with her thumb up her ass as normal. If she ever cared about another it would be a cold day in hell.
I regret nothing, my path has lead me to happiness so far and only I decide if it will be ruined. The question is what will be learned? Ha, I am not holding my breath probably nothing. If I win this match and something happens to me Zel, we already talked to Hurriclark and he did say that the spoils should go to somebody. So if I win and am taken out. Alayna gets your contract and T will get the UK Title. A little prize for his having to put up with you, the stupid fool. We are monster's Zel, so you and I know what we are walking into, and what you will not walk out of the same ever again. She wants to kill me? I want death, her death could be far greater then any for another. So when I walk out to that ring, I want you to take off my head, because that is the only way I will ever let your dreams come true sweetheart. You have to remember, I am a lot better at being Insane then you could ever imagine."
I love the sky, I love the earth, I love a lot of things even ones that hurt.
~Adam Highland; when asked about his feelings on love in his 5th year of primary school.
Yeah I got laughed at for saying that. I actually had a friend that was a few grades up from me, but he moved away. After that it was only me, myself, and I. All of us taking care of her.
Adam played with a shot glass flipping it in his hands as the car drove past scenery he stared at taking it all in. Felt like the Green Mile, was this it for him? All the triggers were loaded, this would be a hole she would not get out of this time. She will never be rid of him, and she will have no choice, but to laugh and laugh madly as she wonders forever where he is?
"I went through life completely dead. Food was nothing but a drug, air was a drug I did not need it. I needed to join the buried and rest beneath or in the earth. I lived as a kid, death tried to claim me, but I survived, then again, I recovered. After so many times of not dying wouldn't you want something else. I did not fear death anymore, no I feared something far - far worse. I feared The Unknown. I met a girl when I was young, and I loved her, the world would stop for me to watch her. The reason being my mind moved so fast that time stopped. I raced through things that are possible to happen, running up to her and just claiming her for mine, no she drew attention, so she would not be so easy. Perhaps I should play a tough ass? Her laid back demeanor told me that would throw her off, but keep and interest. I figured eh, I will just do it. So I walked up to her acting all cool and shit, she gave a 'ugh look at this freak type of look' it hurt. But I couldn't give up this woman haunted my dreams, I couldn't sleep, food was empty and did nothing, I would puke from working myself up so much. She held that spell over me for 3 years.
My heart bleed and bleed, I was being drains and no way to stop it. I had to impress this woman to remove her from my thoughts, I had to make my imagination stop tormenting me. Oh the sleepless nights of dreaming the ghost that laughed at me, silly little boy they said. Some of them like to play with me, they keep me awake to see me slip into madness. Then others wanted to use me to feed their lust, they suck off of me my life, my emotions, everything... then I was scared by it, or hurt. Now ... I thrive off it. Zelean you loved that feeling and I fed it to you.
Was it ever true that I was attracted to you? You have breast and holes so what a daft question to wonder. What you could never ever do, that Alayna was escape my mind."
He chuckled.
"I'll make a deal with you dear girl, I will throw the life line. See if you would have paid attention ... oh ... wait you don't like to hand that out do you? Then again, you would quick to open yourself up to JT. Wonder what that was about, you are using him. Well good thing I destroyed your toy my love. Forever you wished, you wished me erased. Make up your mind! What did he do to you? Poor bloke had no bleedy warning did he? Heh-heh, well love let me paint you a picture, there is a boy that is on an acid ride like you would not believe. All his mind can focus around is you, becoming one with you, and wearing your flesh, you feel your flesh, to devour your flesh. Just like the cow you are, virgins are served in hell medium well."
He stares off to the left slightly chuckling as he thinks of the pure at heart, how dripping with blood they were, the poor, the nieve, the lustful, the greedy, the hungry and starving, all of them believing to be virtuous and he can feel it. Zelean wanted that freedom, she had to be free and not be told what to do, but look at her helplessness. A coward.
Adam looked out the window of the car driving him to the warehouse to get locked in the Chamber for 48 hours. Having her contract, then he could hang her. Make her dance like a pretty puppet. This was his sacrifice that he was going through. So what going down with a bang is wrong? The rain and intense heats was bothering him as he felt on fire.
"My beauty, you really are lost. I must have ripped off your head. I am either cruel or merciful take your pick, I never let the beheaded lose their heads. No I make them wonder around half severed. After all somebody has to guide you idiots around."
The UK Title was on his knee, he imagined it as a child. Shane Trudex having his child. No see he was suppose to be the one with Alayna, why did he let Shane have her? Adam leaned over and hit his head off the UK Title. "Stupid!"
She was so below him on her knees that he laughed at it. Her eyes sparkling with the ghost of her past. "Ya know ... I can imagine now Zel why you felt you had to have me so bad. All those people that kept you down, that put a roof over your head, then paid attention to you, and they loved you. All they wanted was a better life for you, so you abandon them? Because they did what held power over you? Nobody ever has power you don't allow them to have. I still am there for my mother, right until she OD in fact. I stopped letting her boss me around at fifteen. The night ... *sighs* ... The night after you accused me of cheating on you, after that attack you thought was so damn funny. I talked to Alayna, said that you really got into her about trying to steal me. Heh... Banged the frick out of her."
Adam laughed about just saying it. He felt so much more liberated about getting it out there. "I never wanted to date you, but ya just kept pushing me sweetheart and I felt I owed it to you for sticking beside me so long. That is the stairway to stardom, and the last person that climbed up a ladder against me I face after 48 hours of isolation. It's almost not even worth it, but the more you quiet you are about it the more I have to talk so people can think somebody cares. I know you care Zel, you are just waiting for the right time. Go on, end my career, end my life, put me out of my misery! Nobody cares about Adam, and why should they? I am nobody, just another organism like the rest of you, but the difference is that I know how you act love. Your temper is too big, your envy is too rich, and your love is too shallow. What a miserably hollow life you lead my sweet. I have much much better things for my Love though. I bet it makes you bubble over."
He smirked at the cameras.
"How did it feel for me to wash away your sins? I anointed you in oils, I purified you. Blessing rain unto you Sarah White, praise your personal jesus for this. Praised he who made you pure and whole. What made me smirk about it all was how much you liked it. Date rape? What is date rape? Who said it isn't kind? I seen your eyes light up and I never even stuck anything into your panties. Haha, mmm this ... mmm ... mmm yeah those deep sighs and long moans could fuel a wanker for a good while I bet."
He smirked more even still as he sat there. He was getting ready to be locked in the chamber now, he was the second to do so. He'd held out to wait for Zelean, but she as probably running around with her thumb up her ass as normal. If she ever cared about another it would be a cold day in hell.
I regret nothing, my path has lead me to happiness so far and only I decide if it will be ruined. The question is what will be learned? Ha, I am not holding my breath probably nothing. If I win this match and something happens to me Zel, we already talked to Hurriclark and he did say that the spoils should go to somebody. So if I win and am taken out. Alayna gets your contract and T will get the UK Title. A little prize for his having to put up with you, the stupid fool. We are monster's Zel, so you and I know what we are walking into, and what you will not walk out of the same ever again. She wants to kill me? I want death, her death could be far greater then any for another. So when I walk out to that ring, I want you to take off my head, because that is the only way I will ever let your dreams come true sweetheart. You have to remember, I am a lot better at being Insane then you could ever imagine."
