Return of venting

[AJ]

Now don't take this personal it's not directed at one person, and if it is it's not you probably. We used to vent on AWS a lot to each other I thought I'd finally open up about things a little.

ever wake up so happy, then one tiny thing flips your switch and you slip into a mixture of violence & depression.


Well welcome to my everyday. I am up then down, people flip my switch, I flip it sometimes.

Would be F'n nice to be old enough to get fucking insurance.

OH!! Oh want to hear the best part.

Just go to the hospital, they will pay for it at the ER if you don't have insurance.

First off, shut the fuck up, no they don't just because you are 50 some odd years old you do not fucking know every fucking thing.

Ya know what the ER tells you, if it's not an emergency meaning you will not die THAT FUCKING DAY then they will give u a check up and recommended a specialist which OH MY FUCKING GOD.... You need insurance for!!


I am so fucking sick of people telling me to go get help, this fucking America. Stop fucking thinking e are the greatest nation on earth, I love the USA, I love the people in it good and bad. I hate our system, I hate bureaucratics that own our president's dick.


Honestly at this moment I hate almost everything about the world if I was God I would flood the bitch and just start over.


ok...I think I am done for now...but yeah.

[Josie Pleasure]

Completely understand and even if you have insurance they pick and choose what they'll cover.

When I had my appendix out, I went to the ER and I couldn't stand up straight or sit, the only thing I could do was lay down. So I decided it was time to go to the hospital and mind you..I hate hospitals so I have to be close to death before I'll go.

So I go there get told to fill out paperwork and sit. I was there for over an hour before they finally get a doctor to look at me, then the asshole presses on the appendix and says "does it hurt?" I'm like "YES! That's what I told you, when you asked me what the problem was" stupid ass! Then I get admitted to a room where I wait another hour in a paper dress, on a hospital bed while nurses keep asking me how I am. "In pain!"

Then I get to go for tests to see the problem. DUH! So after about three hours of mind numbing pain they decide maybe they should remove it, then the doctor says "wow, a couple more minutes that would have burst". Really? Maybe you should have thought of that while you were giving me MRIs to tell you that my appendix needed to come out..hell I knew that when the pain started.

So yes, I'm right there with ya I have no insurance either cuz I can't afford it.

[Dr. Tyme]

hidden try highlighting if u are really wanting to hear me rant.

or people telling you to get SSI for mental illness when you need ot go to a Psyche for and they only take money or mediocre.

I am sorry but even so I refuse to take prescription meds. I was locked in a mental unit in a hospital after my suicide attempt at 15 and ya know what ... it permently fucked up my brain chemestry due to their misdiagnoses.

I told them over and over that I went from just sad and depressed from me post traumatic stress... into suicidal ... in homicidal ... one by one I became less human. Do you know, do you think they ever once decided to switch my actual medacation? no they upped it higher and higher until it was as high as possible. and I was 16 (you know and age where your brain goes through 'hormonal changes.'

I understand people wanting to help but at least hear the whole damn story first...seriously. you've known me maybe 4 yr at the most, and I am a lot older then 4.

*sighs* sometimes society & humanity just disappoint me.

[AJ Riot]

IN CHARACTER IS NOT REAL LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's art imitating life <.< imitating art omg!

(YES Dude she is still...STILL!!! complaining about that fucking shit!)

[raven trueblood]

i hate the fact i cant get over someone eve tho they are over me and wont even talk to me anymore

know what i hate i hate my job

know what i hate? i hate caughing my ass off

kno what i hate that i dont have a gf and no girl will give me the timme or day

[JT Starr]

I hear that brother. I been there before. Some of it I feel like I still am going through.

[AJ]

this is just random, but I would have skipped school at at 13 to stay home and watch passions. lol, probably why I got taken away at 15. that would have been a lot of different realities to deal with on top of my reality at the time.

not really "venting"

Just saying I'm glad that things happen for a reason even if we never know why till the end. I'm still missing my friend Duckky but I feel better about his passing because it happen for a reason I just can't understand yet, just like various other things in my past. I'm glad I got you guys (You people know who you are) around to help me deal with the present because it's very hard for me to remember my past to figure out about the present. Even the people I don't talk to regularly are still like a part of a family.

Yes I am feeling sentimental leave me alone

[raven trueblood]

i guss you can say i went face all the way in my latest rp thats untill blake gets back though we have un finished work to attend to

[Dorian Blake]

How does a face vocally attack the "face" boss if that's what Ghost even counts as. The in character staff is Hurriclark and Roisin. I'm just saying... how does a face attack a face when he started as a heel going into the match?

[raven trueblood]

ghostt knows about it and i was just thinking to go face since none realley wants to fued with me and so yea but if you want me to stayheel i ill

[AJ]

actually Ghost is just a SN, the actual character isn't relevant he just "haunts' the corridors. I think that what he meant, my char is not the "boss" or actually anyone in char. I'm not bothered if you mention things that are not relevant it doesn't really effect anyone but the person posting it.

I got something I am working on for you dude, I'll pm u actually.




now for some more venting...

Beer = Corona = No need for other beers. lol