-- Baby crying ---- Baby crying ---- Baby crying ---- Light switches on --"What's wrong Alcia?"Riot's mother smiles at the baby and picks up her little girl, Riot is just a little three year old who still cries when not aloud to sleep in the crib. She pats the baby girl on the back and shushes her while holding softly to the back of her head. The mother hums softly and sings a lullaby to her child while rocking the tiny thing.
"Be still my soul
Be still and listen for His voice
Rest in His peace
Knowing how much He cares for
He is watching over you
Ever faithful, ever true
So be still my soul
Be still and know"The baby was back to sleeping and the woman kissed the baby and smiled before putting her back in the crib, she held her finger to the tot's hand and sighs slightly.
"I won't ever leave you sweetie, you are my little miracle."You were suppose to save her Alex, you were her miracle! What a failure... where is she now? Where is the only woman that ever loved us? You let her die AJ... it's your fault... everything is always your fault.
I look out into the night from the front porch of this slum house. Angel was in the hospital and they kept her due to complications. I can't lose her, not like I lost my mother. Where was my father when she was sick? Where was he when I was getting the short end of the stick. Maybe my mother beat me because she knew she was gonna leave, she knew I would have to be tough. Still I am hard because of life, my mother was my rock. Now I am the rock, I am my own rock. It's so hard and cold to be this. My chest tightens and a small stream of tears rolls down my cheek.
-- Baby crying --"Ok sweetie... Daddy is coming."-- Baby crying --I open the door and enter the house walking to the back room where I set up Alison's crib nearly six months ago.
-- Baby crying --
I pick up the baby and she still seems inconsolable, I rock her a little and remember who my mother would sing to me. Really we are gonna sing, didn't that shit get us in trouble last time?
So what? Maybe music is suppose to come out of us, you can not just let it all hang in. I hold her out and look at her as she continues to cry with no slowing down.
"Alright...Alright... Shhhh.
Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That, baaaaby, you're the best..."I hold out the girl again and see those light blue eyes ling at me almost like she is amazed. I can't help but smile at her confusion to my very poor off key melody her tiny eyebrows raised as if asking me what the fuck? Then as if she understood my feelings she smiled back at me from ear to ear. I laugh and hold her against my chest.
"You are quite the charmer, just like me huh? Yea, but you are also very fussy like your mother..."Her mother is dead, how do I know this? I killed her, she begged me to. In the end of it all it was what I had to do. What will I have to do to get my career back to the top? What lengths will I need to stretch my morality? I put her in her crib for a little while and she fusses quietly to let me know her discomfort. I also hated being in the crib when I knew my mother was awake. I still remember crying and crying for her to make her jump out of bed and tend to me or scream at me, it depended what end of the pole she was on when she got up.
I get on the phone and dial the number, I need her. I want my mistress, this is such a touch choice between my daughter and the woman I love. Still I can't ever shake that feeling that Josie is right. Mistress Pain does not love anyone but herself, and sometimes even I think that is as fake as Primo's ego.
(beep) of course the voicemail.
"Molly, this is Riot... I want to meet you. I need to see you, I can't stop thinking about you. I will be out walking in the park near Uberk drive, I ... I uh need to see you to talk to you. See you there... I am hoping...bye."There are many things I am thinking about, the future for my daughter, the way it would raise my appeal to Mistress. It did not take that long to get the stroller through the streets and too the park. Alison was much more quite outside in the dark with me then she as in the house, thank goodness or I would be fucked.
“Is the coast clear?”I push the stroller after peeking around a tree, one can never be too careful when traveling with precious cargo. I whisper but with a tone of yelling into the night, is she here? Maybe she didn't like the idea of the park even if trespassing would be appealing to her, hence why I thought oh the park! Why at night am I meeting her? Uh because I hate daylight and I also hates people. The sounds of the night are all I need, I look at Alison as she shuffles her bitty limbs. Maybe I should not have brought her, but I have been feeling extra guilty over not seeing my daughter. That plus maybe I need a swift kick in the ass, maybe I need something to fight for besides cold shiny metal? (no I don’t OHHHH Sooooo shiny! How can you say that?!?!) I sigh and rubs my index finger softly on the infants cheek before hearing footsteps.
"Hello Daddy." She says dripping with sexual charge. She runs her hand over Riot's butt as he remains looming over his daughter in the stroller as she to leans in to greet the youngster giving him quite the show of her breasts spilling out of her top and with black painted fingers she pinches the chubby cheeks.
"Aren't you a cutie."I fight the urge to giggle as she groups my butt, I would say something but her supple round cleavage is far too distracting for me t form a real thought let alone a sentence. Finally my eyes follow her hand as she pinches Alison’s cheek and the baby coos at her touch, suddenly for the first time I see a softness in Pain. I have never seen her interact with children let alone think she could have a soft spot for them. I did after all hear that she hates children, or perhaps Josie was lying to force e away from her?
“Oh since when do you think babies are cute?”He teases her and continues watching. Mistress smirks as she sees where his attention is obsessed.
"There is many things about me, that you're not privy to. I'm like a dark horse." Her smirk growing more upon her lips as she slowly reverts to a standing position.
"I think the question that should be asked, is why are you putting yours and your daughter's lives in danger out here completely exposed?"“Am I? These streets are safe and there is nothing I could not protect her from… besides.”I say putting my arm around her waist and pulling her closer to me.
“I wanted to see my Mistress… and I just wanted you to see her. Are you a danger to her my dear?”I ask her tilting my head to the side feeling a mad like grin come onto my face as I stare into her eyes. She should know the night is safer then the daytime at least to me it is. Mistress' expression turned dark and serious.
"Maybe I am, AJ." She pulls away from his embrace and spreading her arms out.
"Look around you, there is possibilities leering from every shadow and you factor in a small child that could quite easily be taken from your grasp with one distraction or a few men knocking your ass into next week. Yet you still find comfort in the darkness and feel safe enough to allow me near your precious child. I question your skills as a parent. How do you know that my intentions are good just because it's you?" She lifted her eyebrows with a quizzical look at him.
I often question my own parenting skills, I raise an eyebrow and then take a deep breath. I put my hands on the stroller and pushes it slightly then circles around Mistress Pain.
“Very well if you rather I left and took her home.”I push the stroller a few more steps and pauses without looking back and call back to Pain.
“If you decide that you are not a threat you are more than welcome to join us.”Mistress unsure of what her true form really is decides that maybe this is her chance to once again surround him in mystery. She disappears into the night once again. Riot turns as he doesn’t hear her only to find she is gone.
“Uh… Molly I really want you to come with us… Please.”I say in a low grumble at the end, I dislike begging it makes me feel weak and undesired. I hate that she is making me beg, how does she know I will? This is what I want, these are the two women I am fighting for. What type of champion would I be if not both of them were by my side?
Fighting the urge to run as commitment is not her strong suit, but hearing him beg does satisfy something in her and playing house might be some kind of kinky she hasn't tried just yet.
"Of course darling." Mistress now walking beside him, places her arm within his.
I push the stroller feeling that tightening feeling in my gut as she is next to me holding onto my arm. What is up with this attitude? I never seen it before? we are not far from Angel's I will just take her there instead of talking to her here. It is for the best besides Adian might have spies out here!
Good thing my cousin is not home right now so I feel real comfortable sneaking Mistress in, I wonder rather to tell her or not? ({Part of her might like the idea of sneaking around, but then again I very much want to impress her. Hmm well maybe disobeying someone’s rule about having her there would impress her. Nah we will play it by ear for now.})
“Thank you.”I say genuinely to her, before too long we are at the small house that my cousin is renting. I let Pain inside and grab Alison out of the stroller leaving it on the porch. We enter the place is dark, but like we established that’s what I like. This place looks shotty and the horrid wallpaper is covered up by lots of picture frames all having smiling or laughing faces staring back along with some serious looking school pictures. This was Angel’s attempt to pretty the place up, typical girl. I rock Alison back and forth as I walk over behind Pain watching her look at the place.
{Ok Alex lets see how smart this Mistress of yours really is. Think she will figure out who really lives her? Well shit she should right there are pictures of Angel all over the place with about 25% of them being her and Jerrick…what a bonehead that guy is am I right? What about the pictures of Josie and Rabbit, the four of us all hanging out at the house, these could be problematic.}
Mistress wasn't expecting a mansion, but then again she lives in a dungeon after all and seeing Josie staring with that shit eating grin angers her, but that just ups the anti especially seeing Angel in another with that same smile. With a breathy whisper as not to disturb the slumbering child.
"You should put her down to rest."“Alright.”I take Alison to her room and kiss her on the forehead before placing her in her crib, all this excitement of meeting a new person and taking a midnight adventure has tuckered the poor thing out. Hope I don’t get tired that easily against Cash, make a mental note to self... remember to slow the bastard down early so we can breath throughout the rest of the match. I stand up looking down at her, I am not even sure Pain followed me but I decide to start talking as if she did.
“I think she is so tiny… she needs me. That was a year ago when she was born…uh well after I woke up from feinting that is…ripping and tearing and screaming and blood and my hand…oh God my hand…Now that she is older and I have been away I realize she doesn’t need me nearly as bad as I need her. Something to love, something to help grow, something I know my actions will help mold into my heir. She is not mine… not even my blood. In fact she belongs to my enemy, but yet I can’t harm her or allow any harm to come to her.”I let out a big sigh tracing my hand along this crib thinking about the baby inside of it. I think about how I shared a crib with Rabbit until we were three. I think about how I remember things from when I was two that I witnessed from that crib that I should have long forgotten. I turn around and see Pain leaning against the door watching and listening to me. What does she think of all this?
“I only feel like that about one other person, not so much the harming part as much as I can’t allow myself to get lost from this person, it puts a hole in my heart every time I fail. I feel this person needs me because this person has never needed anyone ever, and because somewhere deep down that person knows I need em too.”I look at her wondering if she realizes I am talking about her? I break off with a light laugh and shake my head thinking I am thinking too much. I did after all come here to make a point, I brought her here to make my intentions crystal clear and her thinking I am weak or sappy is just not in the cards for right now.
“Perhaps I am too damaged… perhaps we both are. I mean what type of father takes his daughter out at night…as you said.”"You doubt yourself far too much. That little girl is very lucky to have you and I know that you could have handled anything out there." She felt bad for making him second guess is abilities.
"Just like I know that you will win this week."“Oh I don’t doubt that I will win, (not out in the open) that is all I have in my life… winning. Think about it Mistress… have you ever wanted anything that is truly yours unconditionally? Something to mold in your image that will remind people of your power long after it has died with you? That’s what she is… a blank slate. Something that can make up for the sins committed against Alica …”It is the first time I have used my birth name in a very long time, only Mistress Pain approached Alica, only she dangled that fishing ling in front of that mutant I was. Did she see me in there all that time ago? Before I as ever Universe Champion, before I wore a mask, before I became a father, before I officially know what it means to be a man?
“I failed you last week …”{I failed to take down the End… is it over? Is all hope lost? How brutal will I have to be against Cash? How violent will I need to push myself to regain that ultimate trophy? Does Cash have this in him? Does he have something worth fighting for? I failed my Mistress and I refuse to fail her again not without spending my life.}
His innocence is intoxicating and she was drinking it all in. The mention of his previous packaging made her realize that she was the only person that took him serious even then. Long before Josie, weaseled her way in.
"Again with the self doubt? Forget last week and focus on today." She walked to him and grabbed his face between her hands and looked him in the eyes as she pressed her body to him.
"I know you got this because you got me." She kissed him with a passion that even surprised her, but she needed him and she was completely turned on as she lures him out of the baby's room before the attack goes full blown.
I have little time to think let alone react, but my reflexes are right into the mix of things. I hold her head between my hands securing her against me fearing she will just disappear like a puff of smoke in the air. I pushed against her forcing her back against the wall the heat of the moment taking me over, but then I start to think about my match. It will be a hell in a cell no escaping just pure brutality. Even now I can feel Cash mocking me.
{This is all a lie Riot, bet Adian is laughing at you; I know we are laughing at you. Didn’t Josie say she is a liar? This is a lie; this has always been a lie.}
“No…”I say short of breath backing away from her and looking down at the floor feeling jolted by the sudden stop of the roaring blaze between them. Suddenly I think what if I hurt her and this is insulting to her? The truth is I am fighting back tears like I never have before, why am I crying? Maybe because I am scared this is my imagination or perhaps I am happy? Is that it for once could I honestly be happy? Whatever the case these emotions are far too strong for me to handle.
“I … I need to prove it. I need to prove that I deserve this. Do you understand?”{What if I am not good enough yet? Most improved wrestler of the year, that’s me right…AJ Riot but what happened to that guy?}
I drop to my knees feeling the weight overcome me and press my head into her stomach as these emotions fight to escape and win over me. I know I am crying but by pressing into her maybe I can hid these tears.
“I have to kill this doubt the only way I know how.”She is shocked by the stop of things and maybe the sheer fact that it was far more intense then what she was ready for. With shaking fingers she put them to her lips unable to speak, seeing on his knees and feeling him hugging her even tears began to fall. Trying to sound convincing and normal.
"I respect that" Replacing the shaking fingers to her lips still feeling that searing kiss.
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"Finally here we are. I never really paid enough attention to know if Adian Cash is a talker, but I know he does not carry his title with him wherever he goes, I know that he has been seen around Paroxysm (the worthless mute) what do they do sign to each other all day? This is September to Dismember. Do you remember my promise to you Cash? Last week you thought you was so big and bad proving that you are the champion and I am not at the end of Injection. (chuckles) oh dear me was that ever a big mistake."Taking a moment I scratch my chin as it is hot and sweaty under this mask.
"Some people around here doubt me, they think I was a one trick pony and that I will not get another run at the top. Well those people.. (coughs 'Dax' Coughs) can suck my dick. It's nice I spent quite a bit of money on it, but before we get too off track here. i don't need the Holiday Mayhem case to become Universe Champion. Look at me, take a good long hard look. Do you see what is missing here? The Universe Championship it takes you to a whole new world and gives you a foresight you never knew existed. Do you feel that power Cash or are you to numb to any type of glory? This is my time and I am starving. I don't care if it takes me face to face with death or if I have to deliver you to your grave personally. You have held that title long enough and I am here to relieve you of it's weight. I learned a lot this week, I learned I am needed and while I can not let down my girls. I don't love much about life, and I know even less then that about dealing with ups and downs. What I do know Adian is how to fight for what I deserve, I know how to stand tall and walk proud even when I doubt myself. I know how to take that motherfucker and strangle it till I have snuffed it into obliteration. How about you? Do you have any fears about this match? Do you seriously believe you can defeat me and retain that title? See I don't believe for a second that you will because you have no idea what you are in store for. You have no idea what you are up against, but trust me. When you see me standing above your body holding MY Universe Championship high while you are crippled on the mat. I will hold that title in the air so high even the blind fucks can see who the victor is, you will finally realize that you really have no clue about anything. We all slip when it comes to being driven, what fuels you? Right now I am the perfect storm and this is just the calm before things get ugly. This is family to me and this Friday that title is coming home to Papa...There's the punchline. Hehe-hehe-hehe-hehe!"I keep laughing as it become hysterical to me that I am so close to victory and yet so far away. I know what the champion has to offer, he will. Everyone knows after all that I always get the last laugh.
